Schizophrenia Night

Schizophrenia Night

by Michael Lee Johnson.

I am a chalkboard computer brain.

I have updated drawn raw

images even the classroom

students cannot see, hear, nor understand.

They sit quietly in Disneyland

wondering about my eccentricities

I capture their stillness, then I speak.

I am the professor, special agent of government

dream tracer of crossword puzzles.

Photographic memory in private rooms,

did I hear a critic, erase

destroy dissociative thoughts.

I walk out unsteady in disbelief.

Is there a shadow of storybooks following me?

 

I am a genius; I know who I am.

I spend nights in formula construction

drawing full color images of my brain,

percentages of gray matter lost.

 

I stick my ego to the eagle of the sky.

 

When on a high on an airplane, self-love,

full bloom, I keep my enemies at bay.

I shelter the skeletons of thought.

 

I trust Jesus because His image is stable,

every group I have ever known says “The Lord’s Prayer.”

Even then, new members leave, disappear, I hear what they said.

I had an MRI to trace all my youthful abuses.

There were no images there but voices I remember.

I cast their shadows, audio, visual for show, in the background.

In time, they quiet their voices.  I walk beyond their images.

I pass on, they still screenplay.

 

You have to stretch lean, refer to sanity,

drink Asian tea, smooth out hallucinated sounds

before that stage, I took that Nobel prize,

even before, I forgave you.

 

 

AUTHOR’S FOOTNOTE:  John Nash has suffered most of his life with severe paranoid schizophrenia and has gone on to be a celebrated American mathematician whose works in game theory, and differential geometry are appreciated around the world.  The movie A Beautiful Mind, portrays Nash’s mathematical genius and his struggles with schizophrenia and how he went on to win a Nobel Prize.

 

AUTHOR BIO

MICHAEL LEE JOHNSON lived ten years in Canada during the Vietnam era:  now known as the Illinois poet, from Itasca, IL. Today he is a poet, freelance writer, photographer who experiments with poetography (blending poetry with photography), and small business owner in Itasca, Illinois, who has been published in more than 875 small press magazines in 27 countries, he edits 9 poetry sites. Michael is the author of The Lost American: From Exile to Freedom which is available at Amazon (http://www.amazon.com/The-Lost-American-Exile-Freedom/dp/0595460917) and iUniverse (http://bookstore.iuniverse.com/Products/SKU-000058168/The-Lost-American.aspx)) (136 pages book), several chapbooks of poetry, including “From Which Place the Morning Rises” and “Challenge of Night and Day,” and “Chicago Poems.”  He also has over 71 poetry videos on YouTube. (https://www.youtube.com/user/poetrymanusa/videos) Contact promomanusa@gmail.com  Website http://poetryman.mysite.com/ Website http://www.lulu.com/spotlight/promomanusa

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